I just need to vent...

Thursday, February 26, 2009
Why is the expectation that just because you are in love & planning a wedding, that you will be happy all the time? I hate to be a downer here but my life kinda sucks right now. I lost my job & J's job is really slow. Financially, we are living day to day & trying to pay our bills. My father has said he will help with the wedding but he won't actually commit to a dollar value. We have to move because the owners of the unit have to sell it before the bank takes it over & I'm trying to plan this freakin' wedding. This. Is. Hard.

I am completely overwhelmed but it's not about the wedding, it's about my life. Now to be fair, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I will likely be going back to work for the same company in April & J is looking for more steady work as well. I know it will get better but occasionally, I just get mired in the bullshit & I need people to let me be sad sometimes. I mean, come on people, my life sucks, I'm having a very difficult time having fun right now even if I am planning a wedding!

Ok, I think I'm done. I hope everyone can appreciate the occasional bitch fest because I think I'll need to do it more than once....

2 comments:

One Barefoot Bride said...

I hear ya, girl! I had a *total* breakdown yesterday. Planning a huge party for dozens of your nearest & dearest, on a budget, when the economy is crashing down around you is hugely stress-inducing. The budget thing is especially hard - I am appalled on a daily basis by how expensive everything becomes when "wedding" is in front of it.

I'm a grad student, and haven't made respectable money during this decade (!), so it's hard to watch the wedding metastasize beyond my annual income. (Fortunately Fiance has a decent job.) And on top of budget/ planning stress of work, daily life, building your relationship to prepare for this great event, etc., etc. Having to move, too! That is just TOO MUCH! You are absolutely entitled to be as stressed/ sad/ bitchy as you want. I hope you can do something really relaxing, like a hot bath or a long walk, this weekend. Hang in there! :)

Brandy said...

I'm with you! We bought a house two years ago and omg if it's not one thing its the other, and I don't want to put off fixing things just cos I'm getting married!
Also if I have one more person tell me that "You just can't do a wedding for under 20grand" I might cut someone!

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